Blue Poem No. 1
I want to be covered in flowers
made of rondelle and angora
and encrusted in muddy hemlines
and dusty polyester cuffs
I want scars on my face
that read like red-figure pottery
portraits of the life leaving Antaeus
and lip gloss clear enough
to capture a Narcissus
I want an hourglass figure
made of rebarred concrete
and calloused hands of silk
coated in gemstones and acrylic
I want US Size 13,
5-inch, red-bottom
heart-shaped heels
colored black as my bloodline
and the black cat knuckle-dusters
to match
I want her to dap me up
like we'd been gang
since grade school
I want him to hold me
like he knows
he's never going to see me again
I want to button your coat up for you
and brush the hair from your face
and wipe the biting tears from your eyes
I want to feel
the weight of you
pinning me down
and the rumble of your snore
at 6 in the morning
I want to be so small
and so soft
and so sweet
you'd never know
how full of
sheetrock
and piss
and vinegar I am
I want all of it
the whole thing
I want to be
and feel
and know every feeling
every moment
every thing
and then nothing at all